Stands against water

Yesterday I did my daily oracle card reading, I use my earth magic oracle cards.  I drew:
Tsunami - Wake up call
River - movement
Ocean - ebb and flow

At first glance, all three are water cards, larger bodys of water.  In my head I see me, in the middle of a faster moving, not too deep, river, and I am standing against the flow, fighting to stay upright. In my head I hear, the river is life.  I'm angry at life, I hate life because life is always trying to bowl me over.  In my head I hear, turn around, stop fighting life, go with the flow.  And my brain, body and soul take a breath and say, aaah.  and then two seconds after that same brain, body and soul says, QUE? Because I have always fought life and I don't know any other way. Now may be a good time to ask for a teacher, duh, this is what comes into my head now.

moral: life will come, the good, the bad and the ugly, the choice is mine to fight a tiring, loosing battle or go with the flow, observe and learn.

Self dedication

I am working on my self dedication and am researching for it.  I think I just want to do something, maybe with Guy there, definitely with Guy there, if he wants to be.  Just something simple, between me and the universe.  I just really need to stop being so angry inside or I feel that it would all be for naught.  Maybe if at sometime I can be at peace, but I am at least thinking about my dedication now lol after two years.

Look what my love made for me :)

He bought the wooden box and then wood burned the designs on it and coated it with a protective spray.  I love it and I use it to keep my candles, smudges, and incense in.  Thank you Daddy!!

He also made this great dinner.  :) Terriyaki chicken with bell pepper mixed with noodles.

Something happened the other day

Before my kids went off on their vacation I had made a little mojo bottle, if you will.  The moon she was a waning so I did a keep away spell, keep away evil, harm and woe.  And my kids got lots of woe, lots of woe, in New Mexico.  The engine on the van blew.  They just got this van.
Not to interrupt, but I was standing outside, my mind wonders alot, and this time it was a daydream of the lady across the street.  She is on oxygen.  She had noticed my pentacle and had asked if I could do a spell to cure her and I told her that sometimes things just are.  Now I know that wasn't my words.  Then I got a thought of one of our most famous witches, Scott Cunningham, who died of cancer.  Sometimes things just are, not to say we can't try to do everything in our power to change this situation, but when bad things happen, its not the fault of the witch, or the powers that be, it just is.
So the moral of my story is this, when we do things, and we do them to the best of our ability, they aren't going to pan out the way we had hoped.  To coin an old phrase, "That's the way the cookie crumbles.", so to speak.  It can be harsh, and terrible, and heart wrenching, we get angry, and anguish, until we come to grips with the situation and carry on from there, its part of what makes us human.

New altar cloth

My beautiful altar cloth.  Since I have chosen a green path, green has become my go to color, and browns and beiges, some blues because of the healing, and so very light yellows.  All earthy tones, seasonal colors too, fall being one of my favorites.

My very simple, user friendly altar that I love.  I love every piece on my altar, including how I came about getting the pieces which is mostly stories of yard sales, flea markets, dollar stores and generous people that let me use the deer antlers.

I know it's not as lovely as some, or as ornate, but I love my altar in all her simplicty and beauty.

Good day!

Life

I have made my life an absolute mess, and I am afraid that it has passed on to my children.  Wish I could go back in time to fix whatever it was that I messed up.  I don't have that ability, so I carry on from here.  But what is the best way to do that?  I am at a loss and this post is full of "I" this and "I" that. 

Full Moon June 15, 2011

There She is in all her glory!  Did not do a ritual this night, but I did make my moon water and set the house ward out to soak up moon energy.  Also I repotted my new rosemary plant that Guy got me today and named her Isabelle after my daughters eldest daughter.  

Garrett got arrested today and that sucked, but for now hoping that we will have a new home for him to come home to.  

Anger

Ok, so I know that my first reaction is anger, and then after a couple of days I can come up with reason.  This doesn't make for the wise.  I am disappointed, and am actively searching for another way.